I miss everything from you

Another galau posting :) Well, harap dimaklumi karena gw masih dalam suasana galau.
This blog, salah satu curahan luapan dan pelarian gw. Because, You wanna tell all of what you want, all in your mind, all of what you feel, but sometimes and some people won't listen or not a good listener or maybe don't always have a time to listen it. That's what I felt. Although, It just save as a draft. But, I feel relieved after typing it all :)

Well, I'm in a really really missing him condition so much :')

I used to hear his voice everyday, know his news everyday, know what he is doing everyday everytime, know what happen to him everyday, listen to his stories everyday, hear his funny stories, hear his laugh, hear his magical words or sentence everyday, waking up and knowing he always send sms "pagi cantik, aku udh bangun, kamu msh tdr yaa.jangan lupa sarapan yaa.." makes me cry so hard :'(. Always ending telephone with "sayang kmu". and all the good things in past, I really miss it now. I do wanna listen to all those words, laugh, and the sexy voice.


And I do miss, when walking together with holding hands, still tell many stories, funny stories, everyday report. Ngata2in atau comment2in orang-orang di sekitar. Eat our fav food, saving money (a.k.a makan K*C yg paket paling murah :p) dan yang paling ngangenin adalah Makan sushi bareng :'(. We both crazy about Sushi and especially S A L M O N. We do really love salmon sashimi, salmon mentai, salmon maki, salmon hand-roll, and all about salmon. (ngences membayangkan daging salmon yg mengkilap.... :'( itu lebih menyakitkan.. :p )

Dan kebiasaan2 yg cukup aneh dan unik yang bikin gw nangis tak tertahankan, yaitu kebiasaan dia kentut yg membinasakan baik bau maupun bunyinya,kebiasaan lucu yg suka menaik2an bibirnya kyk alien,  kebiasaan nyanyi lagu yg temponya seenaknya dia.


And off course I really miss ended and begin a month and day always with him :') miss to have a surprise from him. I miss everything...everything... That maybe he already forget that :'(

6 = Un Mois :')

6 means Un mois, meet another 6 it will be deux mois :'( , another 6 it's gonna be trois mois :'( .. and so on...... I Like to counting day by day, but this time.. count it makes me hurt all the time :'(
Postingan gw isinyaa curhataaaaan galaaauu terus. So so so sorry yaaa :)

Yang membuat tambah mengenaskan adalah, dikala dulu anda dan saya susah sekali memiliki waktu untuk menjadi kita, but We still US!!! BUT at this time, disaat anda dan saya memiliki waktu yg sangat free free free, it's like everyday we can meet easily without thinking about time knocking our watch..... There're no US again!!!

Think about it everyday, it's really killing me softly.

Maksud biar ga bete+inget-inget sedih a.k.a try to move on dengan denger lagu. Makin aja nangis kejer, semuanya jd pas.. lirik si A tiba2 ngena, ganti lagu si C lirikny nyenggol2 hati, ganti lg si G liriknya bikin jedotin kepala ke tembok, sampai akhirnya ganti ke si lagu Z makin makin dia menusuk si hati ini yg robek-robek kayak apaan tau. :'(
Semuaaaa jadiii pass..pass..pass..pass.. what should I do?? okeee..not listening music AGAIN!! turn it off, than change another activity.

Handphone ---> nganggur ---> siul2 minta diliat -__-"
okee, hey you.... phone you got my attention okee. so make me happy. Tapiiiii apaaaa......?????
Buka ini..ehh manyun.. close...
Buka yg ini... ehh memble.. close..
Buka yg ini.. ehh ngembeeeng.. close..
Buka yg ini.. ehh badan ngerengut.. close..
Buka yg ini.. ehh mewek... not close.... E R A S E ! !
Hapus yg itu.. makin mewek tambah jedot-jedotin kepala.. *kenapaa di apuuusss hey ratu apeeesss -__-"

Fix banting handphone...cuiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnngggggg... niat hati banting ke kasur, berhubung kasur mental lah si hengpong ini, dan melandaskan dirinya ke lantai dengan bunyi yg cukup aduhai makin menguras hatii.. *jedot-jedotin kepala.

Baru un mois.. how about deux mois?? trois mois?? D I E ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

go, went, gone...... :')

Sometimes you have to face the word of  GO, WENT, and the worst word GONE :') with a different meaning if you place together until they're in a complete sentence. Whatever the sentence is, the meaning is always leaving. what makes it different is, the time.. is it leaving for a while, leaving for a minute, leaving for work, leaving for a month, leaving to Paris, or "leaving you forever"???
When someone you have for a long time, and tied your heart very strong, and then he/she gone.. not for a while not for a minute, but forever. What would you do?? is that "MOVE ON" words come out from your mind and your friends mouth?? yeaaa... I'm so sure about that.

But, not from your heart off course :)

After you hear a GONE word then.. you'll have to hear the next soulmate word of that, which is "MOVE ON".
For me, that MOVE ON words is just too harsh, too hurt and make it more hurt after you hear GONE!!!! It's like you have it, you love it, you lose it, then you have, you should, you must,  lose it....

That's what I feel now, don't wanna to move on, don't wanna to lose it. just wanna have it back again :'(




............if it could be mine again :')

Peanut Butter and The Unrequited Love

Kali ini postingan gw ngebahas hal-hal yang galau, cukup sangat galau. Mungkin klo ada galau club, gw bakal di sapa dengan kata "welcome to the club ma meeenn..." -__- menyedihkan bukan.

Well, I'm such a kepo-ers banget yaa. someone said about "PEANUT BUTTER.." walau nampak ga asing didengar buat org yg awam, tp buat gw seorang kepowati ada cerita atau ada arti pastinya dibalik kata-kata peanut butter ini :')
Beberapa waktu lalu, gw sering denger, melihat, membaca kata-kata peanut butter ini dari seseorang pastiinya, dan menurut gw itu cm kata-kata iseng tanpa arti yg mungkin tiba-tiba keluar dari otak seseorang. Tapi, lambat laun kata-kata ini makin sering keluar, makin sering terlihat dan akhirnya muncullah tanda tanya di jidat gw yg berjalannya waktu makin lama gw baca kata "peanut butter" ini makin gede lah tanda tanya di jidat gw.
Sampai pada suatu ketika, dimana tanda tanya ini tumbuh membesar lalu akhirnya berhenti menjadi tanda seru yang sangaaaaat besar. Yang artinya adalah "FINALLY I KNOW IT!!!" walau masih terselip, tanda tanya sedikit sm artinya, tp akhirnya gw tau maksud dr kata-kata peanut butter ini :)

Entah antara mau senyum, lemes, sedih, ngekngok face a.k.a bingung pas tau semua artinya tapi yg pasti sedikit lega karena udah berhasil nemuin artinya. Layaknya detektif yg menuntaskan kasusnya, investigasi per investigasi. Penasaran apa itu artinya, cluenya adalah "unrequited love". Lalu apaaa pulaaa arti dr unrequited love itu lg coba?? nah itu dia yg sekarang, mulai memunculkan si tanda tanya lg di jidat gw, walaupun belom sebesar menara eiffel :D
Apa itu terjemahan dr unrequited love itu sendiri, go ask uncle google, for translate it.. :p and you will know it. Someone said, unrequited love it's like half a loaf of bread, it is likely to grow hard and moldy sooner (Wikipedia).
Well, sooner I will find out, what is the real meaning of this peanut butter and unrequited love is...